Love Hate

original by cikjijah hati ini, siapa yg mengerti.. siapa yg memahami.. sakit berteman pedih.. sengsara bercampur bahagia.. gembira bersalut duka.. siapa yg tahu? hati ini.. kan ku jerit dari hujung hatiku ini.. namun kedengarankah ia? pedulikah mereka? mereka juga ada masalah mereka sendiri.. mengapa aku mahu menambah beban pula? aah..tak usah lah kata hatiku.. biarkan mereka dengan masalah mereka.. aku hanya menjadi kulat menumpang tuah.. hati ini.. ubat apa yg bisa mengubati laranya? sudah ku cari namun masih terluka lagi.. hilangnya tawa penyeri diri ini.. tiada lagi senda gurau yg bermakna... kasihan sang penonton yg menanti penglipurlara mereka beraksi.. sudah ketandusan idea barangkali.. hati ini.. ku doa kau kembali berseri.. hilangkan lah gusar yg bertakhta di hatimu itu.. agar AKU bisa tertawa lagi.. seikhlas-ikhlas hatiku.. bukannya sesuatu yg PLASTIK lagi.. kerana ku juga tahu.. keikhlasan yg dtg dari hati.. lebih manis gnjrnnya... duhai hati.. kau bukan sendiri.. mena...

original by cikjijah its 20 jan and im currently working my ass off.. no la..haha... if nit im not going to be here posting new post.. wateva.. juz wanna briefly share bout few thing.. farmville fever in the office..lol.. my colleagues also played.. not me ho.. i dont really interest to play dat game.. but surely iplayed games..but only word game.. huh..but the funny part is dat.. the usually say something like.. have u done farminmg or have u visit ny farm? lol.. like it was real.. but ya sure..i dun really give a damn.. coz we dont do much in the office.. well...im happy working here. coz everyone was damn nice.. love curtin..

original by cikjijah ive been given an oppportunity to change my life to better... i notice dat n im taking dat oppportunity for good.. unfortunately, ive used dat chance for making bigger mistake in my life.. n ive regretted it now.. people always said dat 'u wudn't realize thing until u lose it'.. yup..ive to agree with this quote.. he gave the the trust n i blow it off... am i a gud companion or wat? been thinking bout dat lately.. i hate when dis thing happen.. the trust dat people gave me..i wasted it by making mistakes.. oh..its big..big mistake.. im ashame of mysef.. i guess i juz need to change.. but like how? ive changed..yeah..maybe abit for now.. but cud i be someone else dat im not? cud i do dat? im asking mysef wheter i can do dat or not.. i juz need some one to assist me.. i juz need not to be alone fighting dis on my one.. people wud say me " gal...u r tough gal" but to tell u the truth.. im not dat tough at all.. im weak.. im hopeless.. n im us...