Love Hate

original by cikjijah teringat mase dolu2... peh..masuk je tilawah mesti dapat no nye... kalo x satu no tiga.. hihi.. best jer.. dah beso ni xde plak nk masok tilawah ke pe,... nk g tgk pun sekian..ape g nk ikut jadi peserta.. jahil sungguh la ku ini.. papepun..ade gak peluang pegi tilawah peringkat sekolah2 bintulu baru2 ni.. almaklom sekolah tmpt aku keje anta wakil jugak... walau pun sekolah cina ok.. taun lepas budak yg aku anta ni wakil jugak...dpt no 3... tapi kali ni..tak dpt pe..sedeh jugak ase.. wpun bukan aku yg betanding... well..nk wat cane..salah dia jugak tak hafal surah yg bekenaan..hihi.. xpe...taun dpn tak leh cube dah..memndgkan dia akn upsr.. kene masok acra lain la nmpknya... ingt nk anta peserta bhgian bercerita pasal kisah2 dlm alquran.. cm besh jer..ntah kalo aku masih di situ lagi kan..? who knows..

original by cikjijah finally i got the time to create some writing on my blog again... its been a while after my laptop broke that day... but now im typing back baby... well..actually its not quit good this few days.. my pay isnt out yet.. but my frens only take 2 month time when she started as a gstt before.. idk..maybe racisme is there..no comment.. i was very upset dat im afraid i cudnt but dis laptop.. but..fortunately my sis let me borrow her money n i will pay it back as soon as my pay out next month.. i was..wat?yay...uhuhh...na ah.. soooooooo fooly happy.... and plus...i got durian runtuh today.... so...im not gonna worry even if my pay aint out yet... well...God have mercy on us... juz pray to Him n He open way to us... even at that time we actually didnt realize it... well..talking bout laptop... its hp model..i kinda like the design... the monitor can make 360 degree turn.. awesome huh?its great...i love it so much... well... ive plan to but car too... in 3 mnth time..but i ...

original by cikjijah biarlah mak...dorg dah besar..dah tahu salah btol... mak dan abah dah ajar semua... tinggal dorang je lagi nk wat ke x... Tuhan tu adil mak... Dia anugerahkan kesenangan pada yang bersyukor... Dia bagi ujian bagi mereka yg xpernah nk menghargai senua tu... takpe...lambat laun dorg akn faham jugak mengapa kita perlu bersyukor.. mengapa kita perlu bersujud mensyukuri segala nikmat ni... biarlah mak...dorang ingt dorang selamanya hidup kut... dorang ingat dorang dah besar sangat agaknya... dorang pikir yg esok esok dorang xmati kut.. takpelah...satu hari Tuhan pasti beri petunjok kat dorang,.. inshaAllah...kita sama2 doa je mak... doa tu senjata org2 mukmin... itulah senjata yg terkuat... senjata yg xnmpk tapi berbisa... doa dari seorg ibu...tentu saja dimakbul Illahi... inshaAllah mak...inshaAllah...

original by cikjijah now..where shud i begin.. i dun why i did that... after 1 year... why i decide now?to do dat... i dunno.. clueless.. not knowing wat wud happen tomorrow.. im afraid.. its killing me from inside.. does he need the opportunity to make frens wif me? i dunno..dats only half of it.. the other half? he had left malaysia yesterday.. i dunno how i felt.. dunno wat i felt.. sad?lose?weird?asking? all perhaps.. good bye to u.. i hope ull be alrite all the da way.. as for me? dis weeks have been the most challenging to me.. wanna know y? im tense..sure..till ive decide something stupid.. uhuhh..idk wat i thought.. too much to think u know.. n i wanna make it short.. dats y i wanna run from all dat.. hoping dat it wud somehow solve by itself.. but how wud dat help? my action wud only makes things even worst... i know..dats y im back up from the stupidity.. dats y i woke up from the dreams dat drag me into fantacy.. n now i realize...dat only part of life.. which i shud not be ...