me and my heavy heart

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar)

 

received a phone called yesterday.

one girl was crying at the edge of the line.

i ask her why is she crying.

she told me her brother hit her hard at her head.

i was silent at first.

deep inside me i know its totally hurt.

no wonder she is crying like she lost everything in the world.

my heart was pumping fast at that time.

i know how she felt and why she said she want to go out from the house.

i felt the same, that's why i left mine.

the 'shit' happen over a small things. and he dragged it to worst?

its not fair. i know. and i always knew.

that is why i am a very patient person till now.

you can provoke me to make me shout at you.

but i have patient as high as a mountain.

and i have colorful character as cheerful as a rainbow.

u can push me down. but i will rise fast.

tho, i am still fragile inside, coz my heart shredded to pieces long time ago.

and now, what ever they all do, nothing, and i say nothing can make my heart shred anymore.

we will stay here. i will stay here. and wait . till the day i can let you all go.

but until that day. i will stay here and protect whatever is left in our family.

i may act like i didnt care, truth is i do care. 

but i just stop  trusting anyone of you anymore.

sincerely,

broken heart -ed sister.