Love Hate

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) suke tgk gmbr org kawen.. tapi mase aku blum tiba lagi... kita mungkin mampu merancang.. tapi tuhan yg tentukan segalenye nanti... same de jadi atau tidak.. tapi..kali ini..aku berdoa.. harap, inilah yg terakhir.. benar2 yg terakhir.. jemu..penat..letih.. harapan mungkin tinggi ... usaha juga tinggi untuk yg kali ini... semangatku juga tggi utk yg kali ini.. harap2 memang yang ini...=) aku tak mencari.. dia dtg sendiri.. aku tak menggoda.. hanya sekadar bertanya khabar berita.. tak sgka dia terpaut pula... gembira.. mmglah hatiku gembira.. tak terkata rasanya.. hanya Tuhan yg lebih mengetahui.. aku suka dia.. aku syg dia.. aku juga cinta dia... jelas sekali hatiku benar.. dalam diam menyukainya semasa zaman sekolahku.. walau baru sekarang aku bisa mendapatkannya.. namun aku puas dengan kehendak Tuhan.. aku redha ianya berlaku pada masa sekarang.. aku tak mahu menjadi sebahagian dari cinta monyetnya.. biarlah ia menjadi sejarah antara kami.. aku mahu menj...

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) tggl 3 hari lagi sbelum bertemu si dia..=)

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) i rather be the black sheep, than be the white sheep whom people will refer to when only they need something, every time they need something they will ask from me, like every time... i'm just tired to be a person that others always depend on, i'm just hoping that they learn how to live independently, when i give excuses, they refuse to listen.. like i cant give any excuses.. like i must be there to help them.. i have no life... i have no life of my own... like i cant go anywhere without being follow... the shadow of me... i'm tired of pleasing other people heart's.. what about mine? any takers? i could not 'take heart' to everything.. yes, i'm a forgiver, does not mean i'm easy to please... it's just,sometime i felt like it is my duty to do so.. i understand the responsibility.. that's why i'm here..helping.. that's why i am here, giving... giving the best out of me... giving everything that i have .. to th...

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) today, i feel very blessed, i have good friends, i have a loving BF, have 'finally' good siblings, tho they are still lacking of few things here and there, i still feel blessed, God gave them all to me. thanks God.

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) off for traveling to Bintulu and Limbang last week.. just came back to the office last Tuesday.. went for recruitment session on the same day and Wednesday.. only can sit comfortably on the office chair on Thursday.. which is my duty roaster day... my trip was a bit exhausting..but..the business is quite good. flight from Limbang to Miri was a bit scary tho.. it was a rainy with windy clouds.. gosh...i tot i will never sit here again... but..walla...here i am... not sure wat else to post here... but im sure i cant wait to go to kuch end of this month.. =)

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) this post goes to whom it may concern.. it's raining outside.. and it's past 5.00pm and i'm still in the office.. been opening this post entry since 4pm today.. only now i have the idea to post something... well..here goes.. happy.. yes..i'm happy.. literally happy because i'm yours by.. words could not really define how i am falling for you.. again..as i've mentioned earlier.. i waited for soooo long.. but of coz, in my waiting, i met few guys.. few nice and bad ass guys.. all of these men.. made me what i am today.. i dont blame them for what they have done.. it is my decision after all.. my decision to be with them.. but, i didnt regret meeting them.. coz all of them thought me the lesson that i've learn today.. i'm thankful to God.. he made us chat that nite.. i mean..i dunno what come into me.. was happy when you reply the chat started with 'hi' and still happy today.. think im happier now.. i promise to neve...

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) was crying like crazy yesterday, and decided to take half day leave, again, coming late in the afternoon, at least now i feel a bit ok... thanks By...thanks for accepting me like this.. its just hard for me to get thru dis all alone.. i need you to be by my side in my ups and downs.. and you were there.. listening to all my "stupid" story before.. hopes thing between us remain forever.. i'm just getting tired, each time i tried to get to know somebody who i consider nice, i mean in term of attitude towards other people and God... and each time i'll be hurt... im not finding this type of man because i want to, i just want my mom to be happy.. but the thing is, i dont... and every time i started to love this type of people, every time they let me down.. but now i learnt something.. as per advice by mahader and zain, =) whom i consider as my bro.. dont trust nice people easily... lalalalala... By...thanks for alw...

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) it was told to me by kak Salia.. that actually Adi is around miri.. but i didnt get his call or msgs.. i felt like being dump for no reason.. did i do something wrong? which part? i'm so hurt knowing the fact that he is here, but he's not to me.. in one part, i was relieved. finally i can say to myself..move on yan.. walaupun dalam masa yg singkat.. coz all the waiting before, is worthless.. everything was, in the first place.. yes, i admit, what i did was right.. not to wait for person doesn't want me at all.. but what hurt me the most is.. all the promises he made.. and all the promises that i agreed to.. it all hurt..really...

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) just get back from Brunei yesterday, have a bit fun, never expect that the turn out of the participant would be convincing.. after all, this is my first event in Brunei.. feel proud of myself.. i hope somebody will also do.. well... on our back from Brunei, we got lost for 30 minutes... that's why we arrived at 2.30 pm yesterday in Miri.. it was fun even we all got lost at that time.. we where laughing and talking in the car.. like nothing actually happen.. helped each other trying to find way... yah...it's fun.. feel very excited for my next trip to Brunei.. oh yeah.. BTW im the one who drove the car...haha and that's my first time driving to Brunei since my last 2 trip... =) ok la what kan?

by RihanNa (bukan Nama Sebenar) on this date.. it marks the day that i finally be his official girl.. i like that.. been waiting for this from a long time before.. i could not express how i am actually feeling at this time.. i dunno and i dun understand why i can have this feeling towards a person that i have crush on him from so long before.. i mean, how can i have a feeling to a person who does not care or wanna know about me at all when i was in school..? and i never delete those feeling i have for him for such a long time.. its just, everytime i want him, he always have somebody beside him.. but..now, he is finally mine, and I'm his. I'm happy ...so happy..=) i hope we will be happy forever.. never knew what God had for us..right?