Love Hate

original by cikjijah ya Allah...Tuhan je taw rase rini cane..kuar pg balik mlm..peh..dulu praktikal kat pacific pun xcamtu..huhu..after lunch aku trus masok keje..tup2..dah kol 6..keje x abis g..OT le nmpk nye..aku bg gak siap keje td..kol 715 kut cmtu aku balik..pecut gle seh...mls nk tggu lelame...kang mkn gaji buta cm xhalal la plak..dah la dok wat keje ntah pape td...huhu..bgeger lutut gue ni ..ya ampun..ya ampun..mlm ni cowok gue keje..sian die..dok tdo lg tu..nk amik energy katenye..tp xtaw la kalo telajak tdo japg..maklom shift kol 11..hihi..aku phm sgt kalo die dah tdo ni cane..hihi...aik.jgn slh phm yer...ye la...kalo angpa kol mmg xbgn nyer..unless tdo dia mg benar2 ckp..tu yg xkmpm lagi dia g keje ke tak kol 11 japg..hihi...my dear la...adoi...hihi.angpa mesti nk tgk kan?haha...nti2 la..bersabar wahai kawan2ku yg baik hati.huhu..ada masanya nti..hm..nk ckp pe ntah..hm..aku pun pasti gak mesti dah de yg taw..or agak..sape lelaki yg dmksdkan..kalo btol bonus la kan...kalo x im...

original by cikjijah satu hari...saya jumpa dia di satu restoran fst food.. saya tahu dia knl saya..dia pndg saya.. tp kami lgsung xsnyum pun.. sya xberani tegur dia wlu saya rsa sya tahu siapa dia.. dia tu sbenarnya budak skul saya dulu..haha..skul rndh.. mmg masa skul dulu xpnh tgo..coz kelas kami laki pmpuan asing.. lupe lak nk gtaw.si dia ni lelaki.. selalu jugak saya pg restoran yg sma.. manalah tahu kut2 dia ada.. tp selalunya sy g restoran tu nk tapau je,,. selalu g ngn adik..kali kedua saya pg dia masih keja di situ.. baru sy ingt nma dia.. xbleh dbritahu..hihi..rahsia..nti gosip liar..haha.. then..bnda yg sama gak blaku..dia mmg xtegur,senyum atau pa.. my gez is dia mg xknl saya.. yela mklom la saya skul dulu kcil2 cili boh.. dah besar cenggini cam mak cili boh..hahaha..mmg xde la yg knl.. plus aku tyme skul dlu drjh 5 n 6 mmg pdiam gile seh.. almaklom mlompat..cultural shock..huhu.. then..kami terjumpa lagi tyme reunion dak skul... dia still xknl aku..dia tnya sape dak tu?dak...

original by cikjijah itulah persoalannya disini.. mahu atau tidak? aku xpasti..musykil.. takut bila kebenaran itu dperkatakan, psti ada yg terluka..tertanya..mengata.. semua ada.. aku takut.. tak berani lagi mengatur langkah.. langkah yg aku sendiri tak pasti.. teragak2.. aku malu tapi aku mahu.. aku mahu dunia tahu.. tapi mungkin belum lagi waktunya... mungkin bukan sekarang.. tp jika aku dberi pilihan, aku bisa saja... namun itu bukan yg terbaik....bagi KAMI.. ya..KAMI..aku dan dia.. dia yg ku kira insan baru dlm hidupku.. yg mengubah gusarku kepada tawa.. yg menukar tangis sedih ku kepada tangis syukur.. yg bisa membawa senyuman di kala aku bersedih.. ya..dia..harapan ku cuma satu.. agar dia bisa menjadi ADAMku..dan aku HAWA nya.. agar dia bisa menjadi YUSOF dan akulah ZULAIKHAnya.. dan aku mahu dia menjadi Prince Charmingku dan akulah Cinderellanya... aku harap begitu akhiannya nanti... happy ending for everyone..

original by cikjijah hari ni sgt bgn dgn lewatnye... hahaha..bgn sat tdo balik.. bgn lagi tdo lagi... huhu...smpi kol 3 ptg.. ahernya aku mbuat lptsn utk bgn dan mandi.. 19;48 itu waktu sekarang... aku rasa si dia sudah selamat sampai dirumah kut..td otw balik kl... xtaw samapi xsampai lagi..coz td ujan jugak.. dpa konvoi nek moto dari phg..peh..kalo aku dah sakit suma urat da.. anyway.. rini xda pe sgt aktiviti.. bgn mnd makan then ingt nk beli baju2an sikit. yela utk keje ma.. gue mane de bju sgt... coz aku pnye keje ni agak sporty n funky sket kene beli nju yg bkolar.. i mean colar tset la... pastu some sluar..slack plak tu.. xle gune jeans... ala aku lam stor sape nk tgk rite? hahaha..pape pon...aku dah beli da..td pas mkn around kol 5 kuar g beli brg.. ngn mak..peh.. mak kalo aku nk beli bju dia pun xnak kalah la... hahaa...ada jugak lam 400++ sume bju aku td..hihi... siap dpt free bag lagi n payong sau..beg free ada 2.. haha..pastu dpt lagi baucer 5.00.. cite sal baucer ni aku te...

original by cikjijah peh...ku harap kan half day..hmpir2 fullday jugak la rini.. balik aroun kol 430 lebeh a td.. peh..sgt letih ow..lame lagi aku tggu makin byk keje nti.. bek balik o... hahaha... si dia masih di pahang..mgkin sedang memancing, swimming, bbq,.. aku pun xtahu..its 17:44.. lom ada lagi msg dari si dia... hihi..penat..penat... interesting job rini... bos gue cuti smpi 26..aku lak smpi 25.. anything..aku la yg kene handle..waaaa...tatutnye... starting to get to know people at my work place.. tgn gue calar mencalar do.. cm kelai ngn kucing..pelik gile.. haha...siap lebam2 lagi...seyes!.. apa nk jadi la,...hahaha...i took some pictures on my work place.. hm...see for ur self wat ive been doing all 4 days ni..

original by cikjijah rindu sape?eh... mane leh habaq.. still early ma.. well..he said dat he go to pahang for few days. camping wiv some frens,, huhu...waaa....pasti dirindui org itu.. hakhak.. but still i kinda sad for some reason.. someone dat i loved b4.. he said dat he started to drink, no solat, etc. i dunno why am i sad? i gez he still in my heart.. trying to let go him for gud.. but..hm,...it aint dat simple rite.. love life is sooooo sucking shit... he's an adult why shud he do smthg like dat? doesnt he thought bout dat first.. hm...feel so stupid.. feel so rugi la.. coz i make him solat n he said he never drink when he came back to malaysia.. im a fool to believe in dat.. n owez he use the sad word to describe wat hapen to him dat force him to make stupid action like dat... hm..wish i cud be stronger then dis... i juz...hate to hate him... coz he was so nice after all to me.. i cudnt hate him.. as a fren?maybe not too.. he's a lover to me..n will owez be.. but let by g...

original by cikjijah one thing dat i forget to mention is dat.. semalam mase first tyme mnger dia tunjok tmpt masok sume.. dia ckp kat aku..otel ni ada dress code semdiri.. maklom la international kan..4 star lagi.. pastu dia tnya kat aku.. if possible can u not wear the tudung? coz kita meet people ma... u keja u buka..abis keja u pakai balik? i say wat?hm...cannot o... susah ow...xbleh... apekejadahnye la dia ckp cmtu kat aku? aku kuat da azam taun ni nk brubah jd wanita di bwh lindungan kaabah.. dia pi habaq lagu ytu kat aku.. marah kang ustaz man aku.. hihi..kene kuat ni...hii.. lantas dgn megah nye aku berkata.. i still can wear the tdg in many fashion way ma... peh ada style,,,hakhak..alah..ni malaysia..ape org kire.. td pun ada supplier dtg anta paket angpau n kad raya.. aku nya percuma ka? dia jwb blk lam bhsa cina... pastu dok ckp2 byk2 g.. aku phm sikit je then aku tnye balik free ka ni? ow...haha...lantas dia jwb la lam bhsa malay.. tu pakai tdg..kalo xpakai aku xtaw la nk j...

original by cikjijah aaarrrgghjhj..soooooo tired o.... i need to learn dis n dat.. need to do dis n dat.. mati gue o... hakhak anyway,,keje xsusah..xplu gune otak pun..juz gune tnga byk la.. today dtg keje pki heels.. esk sumpah xmaw dah.. coz my keje need me to carry things berat2.. so...kene pakai but.. tp tu lam proses..company bayar. dorg kaye sgt.. hakahk basically, keje aku jage stor.storkeeper la. pastikan brg ok..quality n quantity.. yg tu task pertama.. ada lagi...paperwork kene handle gak.. brg masok n brg kuar sume kene catat... sume kene taw... hm..yg halal yg haram tak kire... td pun dah kene angkat kotak2 heniken.tiger.gstout.royal la...mcm2.. carslberg la..baru ari pertama.. taun baru dah nk dekat ni. lagi mampos keje aku nanti... hahahaha aku tekad nk wat je... ye la dari dok umah xdpt duit kan? aku ok je wat keje2 berat ni...no hal.. org je xcaye kat aku..pasaipa ntah... angpa xtaw..aku keja laki sume aku wat.. aku pduli pe..la ni pmpuan leh diri sm tggi ngn laki.. hm....

original by cikjijah the lil step dat i take today, i hope it shall bring big changes in my life.. i dreamt b4, but now i got it in my hand.. as i took the lil step..i pray.. pray all my sorrow and sadness gone by the wind.. i pray all my problems will dissappear as the wind blows.. how i wish dat wud had happen.. it must have been relieving at dat time.. but im sure the time will come.. when they really ustd.. the basic of it.. it almost 7.00am.. and im feeling sleepy..gosh..i have to do smthing.. dis morning getting crazy playing the friend for sale at fbook. get carried away for a minute.. forgetting dat im gonna make a lil step today.. feeling much better now.. yah..u know how 1st day work rite? for new comers like me? of coz im nervous and wat so eva.. hahaha...must be funny to thing back about dis smtmes in the future.. well...think i have to stop now..shall meet again in my next post.. have a gud day all..

original by cikjijah yup...i got a reason to smile today.. no wonder all my works are done successfully today eventho ive faced very unhappy yesterday.. well..all the hard work is now payoff.. love my new beginning.. love the way it start.. love y'all for supporting me.. i love you too..never forget dat.. coz u r the important person there... always be with me when im down n up.. hm..tomorrow all my day will have a makeover.. gotta wake up early..yup...early... hihi..lalalala...i hope i cud do well on my first day.. a lil bit nervous over here.. hm...i wish my dad was here also.. to see my happy face..in my first day at work.. well...maybe its not meant to be dat way rite.. hm..i suppose...perhaps theres gud in wateva happen b4 dis... idk..hm..i got plenty things to say here...but.maybe next time..huh? rite..dats all.

lilut and eah hari ini...bersedih lagi...kerana xdapat kerja seperti biasa..haha... i dunno if i shud cry again o wat?hm..crying didnt even make me get the job rite? another frustration..hm..its ok .tomorrow ill get a new job.. well ive plan to look jobs in supermarket...care to join me? haha... but..u know wat?im sick of rejection..seriously..its not only in my career u know? in love life..in stdies.in schools..in wateva things dat i do...had it enuf oledy... nah..who am i to complaints rite? chaiyok2 lagi... but...todays story its not dat bad...i got one gud news... somebody is buying me a ring...isnt dat gud? yay...one happy news cover the bad one..kan? lalalala...never been happier.. but..to say the truth..ive cried because of dat bad news... coz i believe i work hard enuf and i put self confident into the interview,.. maybe its juz aint my luck yet..rite.. juz have to wait and wait..and wait till the suite one come.. inshaAllah...God is always there..we juz have t...

gue pikir dia sudah lupa ttg gue... gue kira dia pasti ngak kangen ama gue.. dia seakan mau mhindar dari gue.. apa salah gue ke dia? gue sih ngak prnh coba lupain dia.. malah dia gue cariin.. ke sana ke sini lagi... hm..gue lantas ngerasa gue aja yg mau ketemu dia.. mau ngobrol ama dia... kangen ama dia.. dia langsung tu ngak mau suma itu.. kenapa ya? salah gue yg dulu? apa ya?gue juga ngak pasti.. tapi rasanya apa yg gue pikir itu salah sekarang.. dia bukan ngindarin gue.. dia bukan ngak mau ketemu gue.. malah dia ngelayan gue apa adanya.. gue jadi teneng campur happy lagi.. sukses usaha gue cari dia selama ini.. sukses...sukses... gue syukur banget...kerana dia yg gue mau cari udah gue ketemu akhirnya... praise to Allah...im happier today.. hope tomorrow bring sun shines to me again.. gue mau liburan.. tapi ke mana ya? ngak pernah libur sendirian.. hm..pasti asik kalo bisa libur ama temen2.. tapi gue punya ramai temenan.. pasti nanti susah banget ya mau milih.. ama keluarga gmana? i...

one wish.. if i juz cud make one wish... i hope that tomorrow cud change my life.. wat will happen tomorrow cud give me chance.. chance to restart new life in 2009.. the miracle of tomorrow... hope the war wud end today.. hope the war cud be perish for good.. hope the word 'war' didnt even invented.. hope he world wud be piece till end.. but...its juz hope... it aint gonna make any changes rite.. but lets juz pray for islam.. lets juz hold our hande tgtr to save islam... any kinda help.. as long as it give benefit to the islam's war victims.. y does those people didnt think of any major distruption happens after they decide to go for war.. didnt that juz gave them blood n costs money? stupid i*****..they juz didnt thiught it carefully perhaps.. Allahuakbar...may the MOST MERCIFULL place the syahid warriors in heaven..amiin..

2009...new beginning for me (yan)..i hope dat wats ended at the end of last year wud be totally end.. coz i think i had enuf...new beginning,.?need to find work..da xsggp dok kat umah saja xwat pa..except masak memasak.hihi..i know it must have been my work since im ank dara..but i believe i have potential in making other things..i dunno..i just need an opprtunity to prove dat,..but..till now..nah..hope tomorrow bring gud news to me.. well..starting dis blog..its a new beginning also..since i deleted my fs, ive no blog to post all my stories...i dunno if people wanna read this..but i keep my finger cross..hihi..its juz a blog..no umpat mengumpat k..dose.cek xmaw..huhuh... well...since im new..i wud like to welcome all of u out there to read upon my simple blog... well..im yan..u can call me dat..im a gal..not yet a women.otw..hihi..dia year im 22...not yet..also otw.. i enjoy drawing.arts.photos.music in me?RnB n pop..balada also can la..hm?wat else? i believe im a friendly person..i...